9/27/2006

What I do and don't do

I hate being asked what my hobbies are. Because I don't quite know what they are.

I often state photography, but I don't often go shooting these days. All of my recent work is just casual shots at outings with friends. I should really get back into that a little bit, especially since I have a digital camera at my disposal now.

I'm interested in computers to an extent as well, and I spend a good amount of time on mine, but I don't feel that it's really a hobby. Additionally, I don't play games often at all, despite the appearance that I might present sometimes. (I just have a strong affection for a few series.)

I don't really watch television. When I was younger, I watched a lot. But in recent years, even here in Japan, I don't watch it. I think I should watch more television here for Japanese practice, but ... I don't know. Too, I like animation as an art form, but am not interested in watching most anime. At all.

I like studying Japanese, but in the past several months, it's become more of a job for me than anything. I'm essentially a college student and I expend so much time on my studies at school and on homework that when it comes time to relax, studying Japanese doesn't come to mind.

I like sketching but that's a very casual thing that I do sometimes. If I had a scanner, maybe I'd draw a bit more—I don't know. I just enjoy doodling sometimes.

I guess I haven't had the time or the energy to get into anything over here. Now I have the time to do more but the energy—or rather, the motivation—is still a bit lacking. But when I'm not doing something, I end up doing nothing, which I really don't enjoy as much as I would like to think I do, nor is it very mentally healthy.

Here in Japan, normally, almost all of my life revolves around going to school, studying, and doing homework such that, when that's all taken away, as in during this two-week break, I think I'm kind of left as too much of an empty husk of a person. Right now, outside of studying, I have nothing to do in my life. I have some appointments coming up tomorrow and on Friday—and I hope to soon have a couple of English students too, which will help in the long-term.

But right now ... I think I'm ... a bit bored. I've changed.

I just need to get out of this apartment, that's all. First, I'll eat breakfast. And then, go somewhere. If it's not raining as it has been. I used to spend a lot more time outside when I first got here. I need to return to that. It's good for the mind, for the spirit, and such. Being so mentally exhausted day after day and just coming home and plopping down has ruined whatever good habits I had. I'll just have to be dragged out of these bad habits kicking and screaming, I suppose.

Yeah, that's the ticket.

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